Adam has been announcing
the countdown to his pending teen-hood at regular intervals lately. He will be 13 in a month, or by his reckoning, one month, three days and 8 hours. I feel like I am watching his childhood fade away behind him, like a dusty road he'll never travel again. He is sprouting so fast. He is certainly not my little boy anymore.
On Friday we took the hour drive to Wheatland where there is a pumpkin patch that thinks it is Disneyland. We had gone last year and had a real ball, particularly Adam. He jumped and ran an played, and all the way home he declared, "That was awesome!". This year we went as part of the homeschool, so we got to do all of the extra fun stuff that I am too cheap to pay for, like train rides and hay rides. But there was a strange difference this year. Adam was subdued. I asked him if he was having fun.
He shrugged and said, "Kinda."
It turns out that he has rounded that bend in the road. The one that made mining for marbles on Coyote Mountain something for the little kids to do. The bend that means the giant slide was too small and the corn maze was, "Kinda lame." The boy is still losing teeth, and yet there is that other part of him that has left childhood behind.
I remember the heartache I felt when I realized that I really didn't want my stuffed animals anymore. That maybe this would be my last trick-or-treat. That I was growing up, like it or lump it. It felt sad.
I think that a new magic eventually replaced the old, outgrown one. I now love witnessing the wonder of childhood, knowing what discoveries are waiting for my little ones just around the next bend. I look so forward to trick-or-treating this year. Jonah won't remember last year, so this year when that first door opens and that first piece of sugary bliss lands in his sack, I will delight in the baffled look on his face.
"Is this for me? Is that lady crazy?"
He will look into his bag, get the candy out, and want to eat it immediately. Then we will tell him he can go get more candy. The look will be priceless;
"So you are telling me if I go up to all these doors here,
I'm gonna get candy and I don't have to ask you if it's okay???"
Then the light will come on.
He will declare, and he will waddle down that driveway into a world
that has forever been changed in his eyes.
I love this part of being a mom. I love witnessing them as they discover the world. I guess being with little ones is so familiar to me after all these years, I will have to learn as they move into their teens how to enjoy a whole new kind of magic.
And there is still magic out there for Adam to discover, too.